Saturday, October 16, 2010

I know I know

I've been a horrible blogger/commenter lately. Spank me. I've just been so, well at first I was just in a crazy downward spiral, and now I'm super busy. To the point that I can't even think about how crazy I am.

I haven't really gained/lost. I'm hovering around the 119-121 mark, depending on how often I have taken a dump. TMI but I really fucked my system up with taking so many laxatives so I decided to not have them for a bit. It's been about 2 weeks and I'd give anything to have a nice decent shit. I might just say fuck it all and take some. I feel bloated and fatter.

I figured out that one of the pair of jeans I bought is actually a size 2. And it's the pair that fits me the best. WTF? I am not a size 2. Vanity sizing or something.

My goal right now is to focus on eating healthy foods (I got off track by eating so much junk while restricting) and now I'm eating all the time. It's disgusting the amount of food going into my mouth on a daily basis. Thankfully most has been really healthy and I'm defiantly feeling better because of the nutrients. I'm focusing on cutting out most of the crap, then slowly lowering myself back down. I may start having a jar of baby food for snacks/a meal or two, once I start really cutting down.


  1. it's not vanity girl - you probably ARE a size 2! which is fabulous :)
    good work on healthy eating and hope things are less busy soon x

  2. It's nice to hear from you! I'm glad you're doing better and have just been busy :)
    Keep away from the laxies, drink heaps of water and eat a heap of raw veg and you'll be back to normal in no time! took me 2-3 days to bounce back to regularity after my fast- you've just got to stick out the bloaty feeling at first, it gets better and is worth it in the long run!
    Stay strong! xxx

  3. The baby food diet tastes quite horrid at times but it does work! It's little portions plus you're still getting the vitamins. Glad to hear from you again, busy is good! More distraction from food! Stay strong xx