Still no scale...

...but I've lost a bit more in the measurements. Not a lot (like 1/4" of an inch off my waist and an 1" off my hips since the beginning of July), but if I'm loosing some inches I need to be loosing weight, right? Because right now I'm convinced I've gained about 10lbs. I feel 10lbs heavier.

I did a P90X workout yesterday and my body is swore today. I want to work out again today, but I don't think my body is going to let me. I've had a headache for 3 fucking days now which isn't going away despite what I'm doing/eating/medicine. And I'm so swore. So I think my body is saying, enough is enough and give me an exercise break. So I think I will listen. I may ask Mom to go for a walk tonight, or maybe a swim. That would make me feel better.

I'm actually not freaking out over my birthday this year. I am really not accepting that tomorrow I'll be 26. But I'm also not around a million people asking me what I want to do. Mom is working tomorrow morning, but will be there tomorrow afternoon because people are coming to clean the furnace. I don't think she plans to take me out to supper, then the only thing I asked to do is Harry Potter (we are seeing it at 7). She had to move her birthday surprise for me to Saturday since I asked to see the movie, so we are getting massages Saturday afternoon. Then we have to go to my aunts house, because my cousin and I share the same birthday and they want to do something together (my cousin is 14 years younger than me). Of course they asked to do something the day off, but I told mom a month ago that I did not want to spend my birthday with them. I love them, but my cousins behaviour really grinds my gears, though I do see an improvement. I just find being around them really overwhelming right now too.

I think the mania is starting back up again. It started like this two months ago (a little oversleeping in the morning, a constant headache, not being able to fall asleep, plus I'm hallucinating again for the past 3 days or so). I do hope when I get home I can get my doctor to extend my medical leave. I'm not ready to go back to work again.