trying to find the words

First off, let me say thank you to everyone who commented on/read my last post. You're words meant/mean a lot to me. I've been trying to post for a few days, but nothing seems significant enough.

I've been restricting the past few days, no binging or puring. Though I did eat a lot today because of stress (way to TMI to share on here). I'm now on antibiotics for a week (twice a day) that need to be taken with food (I took my first one on a full stomach and it was a bit rough still) so I'm hoping it won't make me gain. I don't want to purge because I want this damn infection gone.

I've made a goal of trying to reach 112lbs by the end of this month. I believe I can do it. Especially since I've basically been subsisting on diet pills and diet pop. And apples. I finally found a type of apple I really like (it's not that I don't like apples, I've just never found a kind that made me want to eat them. Made me crave them), I picked up ambrosia apples the other day as they were the cheapest and I heart them muchly.

I've been reading everyones blogs, but not having the time to properly comment. I'm going to try to rectify that.

I believe I'm going to fuck around with my blog layout tonight. So if something is really wonky while you read this, that's me! I tend to make the blog look awful before I get it looking decent.