Thursday, February 10, 2011

trying to find the words

First off, let me say thank you to everyone who commented on/read my last post. You're words meant/mean a lot to me. I've been trying to post for a few days, but nothing seems significant enough.

I've been restricting the past few days, no binging or puring. Though I did eat a lot today because of stress (way to TMI to share on here). I'm now on antibiotics for a week (twice a day) that need to be taken with food (I took my first one on a full stomach and it was a bit rough still) so I'm hoping it won't make me gain. I don't want to purge because I want this damn infection gone.

I've made a goal of trying to reach 112lbs by the end of this month. I believe I can do it. Especially since I've basically been subsisting on diet pills and diet pop. And apples. I finally found a type of apple I really like (it's not that I don't like apples, I've just never found a kind that made me want to eat them. Made me crave them), I picked up ambrosia apples the other day as they were the cheapest and I heart them muchly.

I've been reading everyones blogs, but not having the time to properly comment. I'm going to try to rectify that.

I believe I'm going to fuck around with my blog layout tonight. So if something is really wonky while you read this, that's me! I tend to make the blog look awful before I get it looking decent.


  1. I hope you're doing okay. And life istelf should be significant; if you feel what you did isn't, you could at least thing something that is and write about that?

    You're new layout is beautiful. I absoulutly adored that picture of the girl you used to have though. These are nice anyway :]

  2. It's good you're not purging. Kill the habit. Work on better habits. I know you can reach 112 lb. Good luck!

  3. Well I just binged, but I had a awful day. No purging. Need the antibotics to work.

    Also clytie I love her pictures (I have a few of them saved) but I never regularily posted the pictures as I didn't want to loverload the blog with them. I may post them now (I tend to randomly search my folder till one sticks out to me).

  4. YAY for apples!! and a leap of joy for restricting and not purging and binging. It's difficult!! :D

    I like your blog design. <3

  5. Yikes, I hate infections...any kind. Hope it clears up soon.

    I love the new layout!!