Tuesday, February 1, 2011

another heartbreak

I had a health scare last week. Been getting horrible heart palpitations, and pain, with dizziness and lightheadedness. So I freaked out. Been to the doctor, we are working on things etc. Till I got into my doctor I made an attempt to eat normally. No binging, no purging, no restriction. It was really hard. I was tempted the whole time to either binge, or to throw out what I was eating, or to purge after I ate.

Now, since I've been ordered to rest for the rest of this week (no work, which sadly equals no money for this week, though Dad said he'd help with my bills since that will keep me home). Which means I shouldn't need to eat as much.

I'm unsure what I weigh right now, when I have checked it's been holding steady at 121lbs. So I think my metabolism is actually working right now. I hope to try to keep to around 800cals (to stave off binging) and doing about a half hour of exercise a day. This week it has to be light exercise since walking places is making me huff and puff (as is going up and down the one flight of stairs to my apartment, on top of the heart thing, my doctor thinks I'm getting a chest infection).

On a sad note, my trip to Phoenix was cancelled since my Moms vacation was cut into and she felt it wasn't worth her time. Which has royally pissed me off. I'm literally so angry I could cry. But it's not the first time the military has fucked me over and it won't be the last. I really needed a vacation, which she does not get. So she would have had a 7 day vacation instead of a 12, but apparently that wasn't worth it to her. But she plans on going at the end of March, but I told her that doesn't work for me (hello end of term) but whatever, as long as she gets what she wants.

7 comments:

  1. If your health scare doesn't turn up the expected vitamin deficiencies, it's probably your thyroid. Not necessarily low functioning, could be nodules which are common at our age. I had similar symptoms. A minor consolation: once your doctor figures out a proper dosage, thyroid medicine makes you lose weight. You're very strong to have avoided bad habits until your appointment.

    I'm sorry your vacation plans fell through. Hop in your car and spend the weekend somewhere when you can. Take a small moment, whatever's possible.

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  2. heart palpitations are the most annoying things ever. they're not uncommon but when they happen it's so scary. i get them when i have a lot of caffeine/alcohol and they keep me awake pumping out of my chest! all the accompanying effects you described can come with heart palpitations so hopefully it's just that and not a sign of anything worse!
    xx

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  3. I hope you're OK! Hearing about such health issues makes me scared and I don't think they should be taken lightly. Please get better soon. :)

    Sorry to hear about the the whole mom-situation. That really sucks. Maybe u two can work it out somehow? Family matters are tricky, so I won't say anything else about it. :)
    <3

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  4. I'm proud of you for trying to eat normal before your doctor's appointment. That's a big deal!

    Sometimes anemia can lead to lower lung capacity, as well as the other symptoms you mentioned. Maybe you just aren't getting enough iron, due to your heavy restricting? Regardless, I hope you feel better soon.

    Moms.
    Blah!
    One day, you will be able to go on your OWN vacations, and you will love it.

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  5. I'm worried about you!!! Rest up and take good care of yourself sweetie. When I was struggling with eating more I found raw veg was easy on my stomach, or soups? they didn't feel too heavy or 'bad'... just a thought.
    Sorry to hear about your trip :( Fingers crossed you can find another time?
    Take care xxx

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    Thanks - Ann

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