I'm sorry if I depressed anyone with my last post. I told y'all that I'm a bit dark and depressing underneath it all. I'm just in a semi-bad place emotionally right now, with the weather turning colder and I'm stressed out over money. I also know that no one was trying to make me feel bad and it was only my own self hatred coming out over an innocent comment.
Don't worry, I'm spending a few days at my Dads house to help get my head on straight. Sometimes I just need to run home to help reset my mood. I can't afford to go to therapy right now (and I'm stressing as my mother said she'd send me money for it and my cell phone bill, TWO WEEKS AGO, and it hasn't come yet. I'm doubting she sent it, even though I told her when I needed it for). I even brought my cat with me so I wouldn't feel weird and guilty about leaving her alone (though she wouldn't be alone, I have a roommate).
I haven't weighed myself in a few days, and probably won't again until Monday or Tuesday. It's just one more mental stressor that I can't afford to take on. Part of me is itching to know but I just can't bring that disappointment onto myself right now.
I have been reading all your lovely blogs, but I have no capacity to form comments, but I am trying and I am reading. Maybe in a few days I will be able to. I'm hoping.
Stay positive :) and don't be sorry, looking forward to your next post. Harley x
ReplyDeleteI know where you're coming from with the scales, its a constant minefield for the emotions. Just wait till you're ready :)
ReplyDeleteChin up, we're all here cheering you on! You can do it, even though you may not believe it you do deserve all the happiness in the world! You've just got to get over the bumpy bits right now xxx
I hope you can find some peace and love at your Dad's, girl. Sometimes home makes everything better, even for a few days. Much love sent your way.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like a good idea to go home for a bit if you know it tends to help you. I hope you feel better soon - it does sound like there's a lot going on at the moment which is dragging you down and you deserve some calm and some me-time.
ReplyDeletefeel better soon darling xx
ReplyDeleteHi, thank you for following, sorry I only getting around to thanking you now.
ReplyDeleteI just read your blog in one go, and you are so inspiring.
Thanks again
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i hope your mom sends the money in time. i wish i had a cat lol
ReplyDeletefeel better soon, we all hate low times.
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