Thursday, September 16, 2010
Found out tonight that one of my friends is pregnant. While some of you might think that's not such a big deal see as shes 24, it's still a afkjdkghgksjfafj moment. She is in her last year of university. And her boyfriend is moving up to the city without having a job lined up. I know she'll be a great mom, but I know it's going to be very hard for her (also her parents don't approve of the BF, and our job, since it's casual, has no maternity benefits). Little freaked out on her behalf.
I need some downward numbers on the scale to report here. Feeling fat and bloated today.
On a positive note, I have been noticing more guys checking me out. I don't care what people say, the skinnier you are the hotter you are. Fuck that PC crap.
Ugh today in class a bunch of girls were sitting chopping on crap ass junk food and I got to see it happen since we had to sit in a big circle for a discussion class. I wanted to smack the chips out of the hand of one girl, cause honey, she did not need it. My ED makes me such a bitch. These girls seem nice enough, but I can't seem to connect with larger people anymore. My friends who are larger who I've known a long time, I don't get this reaction with. Random new people, they disgust me on a visceral level. Probably cause they remind me of when I was REALLY REALLY FAT, instead of just the regular FAT I am now. Still kinda makes me feel like crap ass person though.
Posted by Kandie at 8:13 PM